I have to admit..

Not only have I slacked on reading blog posts, I've major lacked on my journey. I did make it to the migraine specialist, whom I am not at all sure if I like. He did put me on these two medicines though, and while no effect yet, we'll see. It really bothers me that I HATE tylenol, and with one of the ones he put me on tylenol is all I can take. Anything else can cause a rebound headache, and he specified Excedrin will definitely cause a rebound headache 99% of the time (Excedrin is what I normally take :().

So, we'll see how this goes. I am going to keep trying to get back on track, not even going to mention starting over, as while not doing the best, I'm still not doing 100% horrible, so it's not so much starting over, as just getting back on track :)!

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Thinks she is Improving

So although this morning was filled with drama to the point I didn't know what to do with things, I am already feeling slightly motivated. I did not get much sleep last night so I am going to take a nap soon, but when I wake up I'm going to plan meals, make a schedule for the week, and clean some.

Oh, and here are some of the things I'm trying to improve, since I never go into detail.
Weight (obviously): currently at 212

Migraines: Have a specialist appt May 28th, but I have migraines at least everyday, sometimes multiple times a day

Stress Levels: I am easily stressed, and I have a lot going on already with school, family, and friends, so it doesn't really take much to make things get unbearable.

Those are the 3 main things I'm looking to improve. Cross your fingers for me? :)

Hmmm

I think everytime I start to believe in my self everyone around me thinks "Let's hurt her, let's cause drama"

May not be around for a few days, don't feel like talking about it :)

What the hell is wrong with me?

I can not get motivated, I know I have to change my life in many many aspects, but for some reason the thought of it makes me feel physically ill.

I will change! Tomorrow I might actually make a post about me, now gonna watch Mallrats (Amazing movie), and try to get some sleep because tomorrow is a new day :)

Failed Day #1

Mmk, so I totally failed, and I do have an excuse but it probably doesn't give it much justice.

This morning, my blood sugar must have went low, because I was shaking non stop, so I tried eating something and it helped. But then I ate and ate and ate. Not sure why, I wasn't very hungry at all. But, all it did was make me want to succeed for the rest of the day, and start tomorrow off right. Tonight gonna sleep 8 hours only, and hope that it helps, as 15 hours sure as heck don't.

Wish me luck on it :) Might post tonight after The Biggest Loser, and if not will post sometime tomorrow afternoon :)!

So not motivated..

I woke up when my alarm went off this morning, so got the getting up part down apparently (I'm sure it has nothing to do with the fact I slept 15 hours last night...)

Anyway, now I can't get motivated to get up at all. I read through blogs, and now I feel like laying back down. I haven't eaten breakfast, nor did my CouchTo5k like I wanted too...Maybe a little bit more sleep is in order? Might lay down for another 30 mins-1 hr. And then get up, eat, and such. We'll see.

Bob Harper needs to put his challenge up on facebook, I actually want to participate today :(

Anyway, yeah, off to either lay down or force myself to get motivated and go get some food.

*yawn*

I'm slowly working on all the organization stuff I want to get done by tomorrow. Today after my last final test {OUT FOR 3 MONTHS NOW!} mom was still in wal mart, so I decided to walk towards Wal Mart to meet her. I think I walked maybe 3/4 of a mile to a mile, which felt good beings I haven't walked in forever!

My eating hasn't been good today, so kinda glad I decided today will be for organization, I was starving this morning and I chose Burger King. An original chicken sandwich with a large fry (Ate about 1/3 of the fries).

Well, gonna go finish my meal plans and such :)

Bleh

Okay, so I got very motivated, and then I got sick and did not have time to focus on anything about me. So time to officially begin again. This is not a diet, this is not temporary, this is a full over lifestyle change, and I am doing it starting from RIGHT now.

I have started a notebook, just to help with this. I will type out what is written on the inside cover:

The Goal: To become a better person, inside and out.

How?: Diet, exercise, time management, stress management.

Official Start Date: Tuesday May 12, 2009

This notebook will be used for meal plans, lists, and whatever else is deemed necessary.

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Also, I really need some motivation at times, so please if you have facebook, myspace, or twitter add me:

Twitter: http://twitter.com/caitlinluff
Myspace: www.myspace.com/caitlincorrupted
Facebook: Under caitlinburke@live.com

For twitter, I check my followers once-twice a week, or you can @message me, and I will follow you as soon as I read it :)

Apparently sleep is important.

For the past week or so I've been telling myself I'll never lose weight, and the such. Lately I've been sleeping more, say the past 2-3 days, and I've been thinking about how much energy I have, just getting the recommended 8 hours and not napping. So, I was telling myself I could do anything I want, I have energy, I'm young, etc etc. So I planned my meals yesterday, so that mom could go grocery shopping and such. I got up this morning and had planned for:

1 orange
2 Toaster Waffles (barely sprinkled in syrup)
and 4 pcs of microwave bacon

well 1 orange, 1/2 a toaster waffle, and 3 pcs of bacon later I feel stuffed. Not literally lol. I realized I was starting to feel not so hungry, so I moved my plate to the side and told myself if in 20 minutes I haven't felt hungry, I can scrape it.

I feel proud of myself!

My ipods dead so not done a work-out yet, but am charging it and as soon as it's charged gonna do a C25k, and later hopefully gonna do some Jillian <3

Hope to post a lot more often, I feel bad posting on a weightloss blog, when I'm not doing anything to lose weight. Maybe now it will be different!