The Past

First off, a horrible confession, I skipped breakfast. I shouldn't have, I was up in plenty of time to eat, i just didn't want to cook. I really need to get on the ball and start doing the things I know I have to do.

Now, onto a "rant" about the past, or not so much rant, well you'll see what it is.

I noticed about 10 minutes ago that I live in the past. I dwell on the past much more than needed, and it has got to stop. A guy from the past, Scott, was sitting in a chair in the hallway. I didn't even know he went here, but he tried to stop me to talk. I just walked past, I had no wants or desires to even acknowledge him. On my way back down the hall after class (Yay for only quizzes), I gave him a "go to hell" look. His friend was like "Ouch does she know you?" and he barely audibly replied yes. Now, Scott didn't hurt me, there were no major fights, he just happened to be in a time of my life I try not to acknowledge anymore. So why the hell did I give him the cold shoulder when it was majorly unneeded, and rude. I have no idea. I have got to move on. So, when I see him again I plan on saying Hi, and walking past as if he was another stranger in the hall. I say hello to strangers all the time, so why not to an old friend?

I guess this was just another revelation of many in my lifestyle change.

Small Organization Post

This post is mostly for me, in case my notebook gets lost etc, but this is my "organization" note book so far:

Things To Do Every Morning After Breakfast/Shower
Wash Face
Brush Teeth
Mouth Wash
Brush Hair
Check bag and Purse
Study for 30 mins or until time to leave
Organize stuff, and then free.

Things that go in Bag & Purse
Bag:
Books for Day
Planner
Books I'm Reading
Pens/Pencils


Purse:
Phone
Wallet
Calculator
Tylenol
Keys
Camera

That's it so far, still working on it, of course, need to write goals in it, will get to doing so soon :)

About to head to bed, two posts in one day, wow a personal record.

September 20th

Today was boring, I didn't get a work out in, Jason hovered over me all day, ew.

Breakfast was scrambled eggs and toast, yum.


Drank kool-aid with it, I am trying to make myself like water by itself. Not working well :(.

Chicken with green beans, yum! Ate almost all of it, the chicken was a bit too hot for me. Was seasoned with salt, pepper, and red pepper.





Dinner was turkey on bread with lays potato chips. Should have left off the chips, but they sounded good at the time.

No idea how many calories this was all together, but all in all it was a pretty good day.

Okay!

I am prepared as can be, and my camera came in, so I am officially a food blogger ;)

Well, will be tomorrow as today is just letting battery charge.

*poke*

Just wanted to let everyone know I'm not MIA, I will continue to blog, just been major busy.

Right now I HAVE to go study for a psych test, will post either tonight or tomorrow :)

A Sorta Random Update

Okay, so I am getting a "goals" notebook ready again, only this time am writing in detail goals of what I want to accomplish to better myself.

It's not with me (I'm in the school library) or I would get it out.

I am going to start counting the walking around campus as mild exercise, because I always have about 20 to 30 pounds of books, and these are some logn walks. I know the walk across the bridge ( Will take a pic and post when my digitial camera comes in ) is about 1/2 a mile. 1/2 a mile with 20 to 30 lbs on your back is not easy ! lol

I am hoping to become a food blogger completely when the digi cam comes in , maybe will make me more accountable for what I eat.

Well that's about all for today. Have to give a speech *shudders* and take a biology test :(

(This was yesterday, but my school computer would not post it :()

I Have Begun To Vlog!

Go to youtube to view it, and comment?

Still doing semi-good

I'm not on top of my eating completely, but blame my mom. No not in a way that she is making me eat wrong, in a way that she decided to give me whatever virus she had that is making me all stuffy nosed and making me want to sleep nonstop.

I am going to class and that's about it, I barely have enough energy to get through that.

It's mostly sore throat, stuffy nosed-ness, This is day 2 so let's hope it goes away soon!

The end of the day

My day was so-so eating wise. Definitely room for improvement, but way better than normal. My overall day ended up sucking. I'm really tired and too lazy to retype it so I'll just copy and paste what I said to Kaelin:

(10:25 PM) (*)Caitlin is arou: ok so
he knew I was studyign for a test
and he was like WAH GO TO WAL MART WITH ME I WANT TO GO BUY STUFF
(10:25 PM) (*)Caitlin is arou: so i was like offt w/e
and then we went to wal mart and he was like IF YOU DON'T DO EVERYTHING I SAY YOU CAN WALK HOME ASDFLKJASDFKLJ
(10:25 PM) (*)Caitlin is arou: and I was getting really annoyed so we went to the restaurant to meet my brother
and he was screaming at me and being rude to everyone
(10:26 PM) (*)Caitlin is arou: and telling me I was fuckings tupid for studying and caring about my grde
(10:26 PM) (*)Caitlin is arou: and then continued to call me fat and telling me I would fail on my diet
(10:27 PM) (*)Caitlin is arou: and he left me there so I ended up coming home starvnig so I may fail on the diet because I'm hungry and just want to eat!

Sorry for language and typos. Will follow up tomorrow :(

Time to Congratulate Myself

So we went to pizza hut, I wasn't going to tell my family they couldn't have it just because I WON'T eat like that. I ordered salad bar for me. I had three plates of salad which I'm not counting at all since it was all vegetables, and one slice of pizza.

That is great for me! I normally down a bunch of cheesesticks and a crapload of pizza. I was craving cheesesticks since everyone else was having them, so I grabbed moms, ate one bite, and told her to put the rest on the other side of her.

The exercise is down, still only got walking around campus, but I woke up with a horrible leg pain and it hasn't gone away, so not going to push myself, at least the walking is burning calories.

ugh

First day and theywant to take me to pizza hut. Wish me luck on self control.

A September 1st Start.

I ended up deciding to take a break from the lifestyle change until I was 18 and could have a bit more say in my life..

Long story lol, but mom pretty much said until I was 18 I would eat what SHE said.

So time for a Sept 1st start.

Breakfast: 2 scrambled eggs, 2 pieces toast.

Going to eat and head to class, but I have a question. I walk around campus all day and then when I get home I just dont' feel like exercising. Should I see how I do with just walking around campus, and if the weight comes off then only add exercise when I feel like it? Or should I make myself exercise anyway.

Goal 1: Get off diet soda. Even if I'm drinking 1 or 2 regular sodas a day I need to get off the effects of aspartame and artificial sweeteners put in soda.