Saturday, May 30, 2009

I have to admit..

Not only have I slacked on reading blog posts, I've major lacked on my journey. I did make it to the migraine specialist, whom I am not at all sure if I like. He did put me on these two medicines though, and while no effect yet, we'll see. It really bothers me that I HATE tylenol, and with one of the ones he put me on tylenol is all I can take. Anything else can cause a rebound headache, and he specified Excedrin will definitely cause a rebound headache 99% of the time (Excedrin is what I normally take :().

So, we'll see how this goes. I am going to keep trying to get back on track, not even going to mention starting over, as while not doing the best, I'm still not doing 100% horrible, so it's not so much starting over, as just getting back on track :)!

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

Pampered Chef Giveaway! :o

Click to read all about it! :)

Friday, May 15, 2009

Thinks she is Improving

So although this morning was filled with drama to the point I didn't know what to do with things, I am already feeling slightly motivated. I did not get much sleep last night so I am going to take a nap soon, but when I wake up I'm going to plan meals, make a schedule for the week, and clean some.

Oh, and here are some of the things I'm trying to improve, since I never go into detail.
Weight (obviously): currently at 212

Migraines: Have a specialist appt May 28th, but I have migraines at least everyday, sometimes multiple times a day

Stress Levels: I am easily stressed, and I have a lot going on already with school, family, and friends, so it doesn't really take much to make things get unbearable.

Those are the 3 main things I'm looking to improve. Cross your fingers for me? :)


I think everytime I start to believe in my self everyone around me thinks "Let's hurt her, let's cause drama"

May not be around for a few days, don't feel like talking about it :)

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

What the hell is wrong with me?

I can not get motivated, I know I have to change my life in many many aspects, but for some reason the thought of it makes me feel physically ill.

I will change! Tomorrow I might actually make a post about me, now gonna watch Mallrats (Amazing movie), and try to get some sleep because tomorrow is a new day :)

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

Failed Day #1

Mmk, so I totally failed, and I do have an excuse but it probably doesn't give it much justice.

This morning, my blood sugar must have went low, because I was shaking non stop, so I tried eating something and it helped. But then I ate and ate and ate. Not sure why, I wasn't very hungry at all. But, all it did was make me want to succeed for the rest of the day, and start tomorrow off right. Tonight gonna sleep 8 hours only, and hope that it helps, as 15 hours sure as heck don't.

Wish me luck on it :) Might post tonight after The Biggest Loser, and if not will post sometime tomorrow afternoon :)!

So not motivated..

I woke up when my alarm went off this morning, so got the getting up part down apparently (I'm sure it has nothing to do with the fact I slept 15 hours last night...)

Anyway, now I can't get motivated to get up at all. I read through blogs, and now I feel like laying back down. I haven't eaten breakfast, nor did my CouchTo5k like I wanted too...Maybe a little bit more sleep is in order? Might lay down for another 30 mins-1 hr. And then get up, eat, and such. We'll see.

Bob Harper needs to put his challenge up on facebook, I actually want to participate today :(

Anyway, yeah, off to either lay down or force myself to get motivated and go get some food.

Monday, May 11, 2009


I'm slowly working on all the organization stuff I want to get done by tomorrow. Today after my last final test {OUT FOR 3 MONTHS NOW!} mom was still in wal mart, so I decided to walk towards Wal Mart to meet her. I think I walked maybe 3/4 of a mile to a mile, which felt good beings I haven't walked in forever!

My eating hasn't been good today, so kinda glad I decided today will be for organization, I was starving this morning and I chose Burger King. An original chicken sandwich with a large fry (Ate about 1/3 of the fries).

Well, gonna go finish my meal plans and such :)


Okay, so I got very motivated, and then I got sick and did not have time to focus on anything about me. So time to officially begin again. This is not a diet, this is not temporary, this is a full over lifestyle change, and I am doing it starting from RIGHT now.

I have started a notebook, just to help with this. I will type out what is written on the inside cover:

The Goal: To become a better person, inside and out.

How?: Diet, exercise, time management, stress management.

Official Start Date: Tuesday May 12, 2009

This notebook will be used for meal plans, lists, and whatever else is deemed necessary.

Also, I really need some motivation at times, so please if you have facebook, myspace, or twitter add me:

Facebook: Under

For twitter, I check my followers once-twice a week, or you can @message me, and I will follow you as soon as I read it :)

Saturday, May 2, 2009

Apparently sleep is important.

For the past week or so I've been telling myself I'll never lose weight, and the such. Lately I've been sleeping more, say the past 2-3 days, and I've been thinking about how much energy I have, just getting the recommended 8 hours and not napping. So, I was telling myself I could do anything I want, I have energy, I'm young, etc etc. So I planned my meals yesterday, so that mom could go grocery shopping and such. I got up this morning and had planned for:

1 orange
2 Toaster Waffles (barely sprinkled in syrup)
and 4 pcs of microwave bacon

well 1 orange, 1/2 a toaster waffle, and 3 pcs of bacon later I feel stuffed. Not literally lol. I realized I was starting to feel not so hungry, so I moved my plate to the side and told myself if in 20 minutes I haven't felt hungry, I can scrape it.

I feel proud of myself!

My ipods dead so not done a work-out yet, but am charging it and as soon as it's charged gonna do a C25k, and later hopefully gonna do some Jillian <3

Hope to post a lot more often, I feel bad posting on a weightloss blog, when I'm not doing anything to lose weight. Maybe now it will be different!